So I know I don’t usually post personal stuff here on my tumblr…it’s because it’s often depressing and introspective. But sometimes I just have stuff to work through that I need to get out via writing about it.

Lately I have been feeling extremely unattractive. Like an asexual blob shaped thing. I hate how I look in everything, how my face looks with or without makeup, my hair, all of it. I am a flirty, physical person by nature and it seems lately that every time I try to playfully flirt I get rebuffed. Well rebuffed isn’t the correct word, it’s more like ignored. I used to have “it”, it being magnetism, charisma, ect, and I feel as if I have lost it somehow. I’m reading things wrong. I thought a few guys I know found me attractive and desirable, but now I’m not so sure. I feel that I’ve been mistaking friendliness for attraction. I don’t feel attractive to anyone. My boyfriend and I still love talking and we get along fine, but physical contact had never been high on his list. I want to feel desired. I don’t know… I feel like I’m rambling. 

That’s all.

I need to find a photographer soon and shoot more sets! I was looking through my pictures and found this great shot.

My baby boy is back home again!

Absolutely! The problem is finding a photographer since he takes the photos for my sets! But we will get a set of that up, along with a boob smothering one.

Tesla is missing.

I don’t know what to do. It’s been 13 hours and no sign of him. I just can’t stop sobbing. There’s a snowstorm outside and I just don’t know where he is. I looked for hours last night, but nothing. I just want him home. I miss him so much and I’m so worried.

I plan to soon! I’m going to have a whole set with them on my site :)

I love my checkered suspenders!

Sploosh

I LOVE Pam and the show Archer… she might be my favorite character. And that would be a pretty easy cosplay too!

A fan made me these amazing gifs! You like? ;)